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....and here's why.

No, i am not hurt right now nor in a fight with my boyfriend whatsoever. It's just my thoughts about this particular line, and from my experience, it always ends in a not-so-pleasant situation. Let me tell you why.

Years and years of your life, you've been on and off countless relationships. Some left you a memorable and beautiful memories, while some are just plain hurtful and you wished you'd just forget it and move on.

On April 10th. Yes, on April 10th. I got a message from someone. A friend of my co-worker, wanted to be friends with me.

Source : x Wow. it's like i never pour my hearts and soul on this blog anymore. Days at hometown have been good. Not great but it was actually okay, compared to last years. maybe it's because i'm alone, so no one destroys my mood. but at the same time, i'm also bored because of it. I actually had a fight with icang yesterday, because of some particular reasons. I couldn't say it's not a big deal, because to him maybe it is. It was kind of a big fight, but in the end we made up. And i'm glad. But i'm going to admit that i can still feel the tension between us two... Being in a fight with somebody you love and miss so dearly really brings you completely down. I couldn't concentrate at all. And i can't even talk properly with someone because all you can think about is the fear of losing him. I think it is one of the perks of being in love. you'll feel happiness, but you're also taking risks of getting hurt. you just gotta deal with...

Hi guys, whats up. So apparently i've been ignoring my blog since february 22 (see last post) so i thought i'm going to colour things up a little bit by writing some new post here, though i'm not thinking that i should continue blogging anymore. No particular reason, it's just i don't have any passion for blogging left. Anyway, let's talk about how my life is going on. First of all, and probably this first things gonna go unbelievably long after, i broke up with my boyfriend. Yes, i am. I am not going to talk about why did i broke up with him in the first place, since it's not necessary to always talk about things on public blog. This break-up took most of my spirits away, and i'm on the process of healing myself up. It's been almost a month, yet i'm still on my emo mode. It's not that easy to just forget everything and start anew, you know. Although it's just a year of relationship, but i felt like i've been dating forever alr...

It's been 62 days since the day that i officially be his one and only. I know all the things i'm gonna say later on gonna sound very mushy and shit for a two month relationship, but this is all what i feel right now, and i am not ashamed to tell it all out so that the world know just how much i love this guy. He came to me as my friend, the friend who are always there for me and willing to help me whenever i am sad or need him, although i am just one of his ordinary friend. Two months of being nice friends and all, i had to go back to my hometown to celebrate chinese new year. That time where we knew we are going to be separated hurts a little part of our heart but none confessed, cause you know, maybe it's just this feeling where we have to be separated with our close friends. No big deal. But as time passes by, this feeling, where days without his presence disturbs me very much. I feel like, without him, lots of colour in my life just dissapear. There are no swee...

But you don't even give a fuck, do you?