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Oh how i love the white swan that swims freely above. kinda reminds me of black swan. Nina Portman. Vintage woman. All so gorgeous and le beautiful D: And why am i using the word "le" whenever i thought words might be cool of i use that in front of it? Geez. I'm getting autism every single day. Maybe it's because this boredom and ennui. Urbandictionary says ennui defines bored in high and critical situation already which will cause death and whatever but i don't care i like to use the word ennui. But oh well who cares anywaysssss. No one even wants to read this piece of shit. If you read it, i'm really really honored. Like throw confetti and say thank you endlessly. Geez what am i saying actually. So tonight i had a lotta fun. Well actually everytime i'm with Pinge i have a lot of fun since she's a very humorous person and easy-going but anyone has their own bad sides anyways soo yeah. What my point here is i had a lot of fun hanging out with Ping...

I just met Neti , my middle high school best friend after a 238192381239 months of time. She changed quite a lot, her hair is long and curly now, and she can ride a motorcycle; even have a motorcycle now. It's cool, since the last time i saw her she's still a good girl and such. Now she's a big girl now, she even had a boyfriend already and just had their first anniversary. :3 So sweet, yet so making me jelly since i'm single and forever alone now. /Le creyz Few minutes later imma hang out with Pinge and friends again. It's saturday now, and on next Monday imma go back to Jakarta. Gonna miss a lot of things here, but i can't wait to go back to Jakarta too since i'm gonna have my own computer and i just ordered three new contact lenses. CAN'T WAIT TO TRY IT OUT WEEEEE. /Le jump around like a crazy batch okay i think that's enough. A lot of people also say my zits had grown a lot. Oh fuckeries, i don't really care anymore since it's just...

And for the first time ever, i feel that i'm not good enough for him... For my crush.. He's so perfect, so clever, so.. He deserves better than me, but on the other side i want to be his best. Have you ever felt like this? This hurt.. and in love feeling? That scary feeling when you think of him in a relationship with other girl someday.. And that feeling where you feel like you're not good enough for him.. All at once. Have you? But i guess my friend is right. I shouldn't fall in love and fall out love that easily.. I look like im kidding people by my feelings. Let's see what have i become next term..

There is sooo much; too much things in my mind. I just can't keep it off my mind. Too much problems in my head, too much conversation, too much memories to keep inside my small tiny byte head. Some things are meant to keep, and some are just too difficult to say, and some just.. stay in there. Echoing. Winding. I am already 18. And most of the people the same age as me already done a lot of successful things, and they already start their career by i don't know, start to do what they have been wanted even the smallest things, while i'm still figuring out what to do, or what should i do to pursue my dreams. I just had a conversation with my mom this morning, about career. Since this morning we visited a tailor shop, my mom talked a lot about how she earn lots of money by being a tailor. And she wants me, and my sis to cooperate with her doing any kind of business, even tailor. It would be a big success, she says, as usual. And then she asked me this question. "If i gi...

I personally had a lot of fun. At first im a bit awkward with a few of my friends cause we haven't met for a long time but after a while i rock the shit out of it LOLz. Me with Momo and Raka. Very unglam photo of me. Shit. My friend shouldn't have took this D: Now everybody knows i'm a insane bitch when it comes to singing. /Le sighh Me with one of my besties. I love this pic. Idk why it looks so.. Idk. Noisy and nostalgic. AND YESSHH THIS IS UNEDITEDDD 8D Last pic to end this post. And if you're wondering why i wear the same T-shirt when i meet Ika is because i meet Ika and Karaoke with my friends ON THE SAME NIGHT . So yeah. Not because i never wash my clothes stupid.

Okay so this is lame already cause she posted about this too and she already said all of the things we had done during our meeting, but yeaaahh i'm still going to post this event with my own version. If you wanna read her post about us, you can see it here . LOL but it's in Indonesian :3 Her name is Ika Dian Aruna . We all call her Ika. Some of you might already know cause she's like all over the place already luulz xD She's in highest grade of mid school now preparing to enter high school. She's around idk.. Maybe 14, 15. I forgot. And her blog, is here . She's a very sweet girl.. And well uhm, crazy. ;P she's a very crazy and kind person to talk to but when you're in trouble, she's there to help you to the fullest. Soooooooo yeaahh we promised to meet at around 6:30PM but i ended up meeting her around 7PM D: i'm such a late queen. At first i got lost cause her house is in an alley between 84723847298342 others of alleys so i got lost and sh...

Stupid facebook didn't wanna accept my password so i have to reset it =A= So the password is LOOOL it's encrypted, don't even think about it . Ohhh KY :'D

Sorry the image quality look like shit. I took it with my phone, you can see me on the left bottom of the photo. hahaha... *awkward laugh* my hunnie looks creepy here. Zomg i feel very guilty. :-| So that above, is called Mhyr Xieh (zomg do i spell your name right hun sorry T___T). She prefer to be called Lmyx or just Myx . She's from Philippines, and she, is my first cybermate slash friend slash honey ♥ . I remember when i was still a noob (although now i'm still one) and she's all new to blogger too, and she said she wanted to have a cybermate friend and i offer myself to be her friend lolz, then i still remember the time when we talk about google adsense thing, then we talked about our own boyfriend, and then i remembered too the time where we broke up with our own boyfriend at the same time, LOL. And we wrote letter to each other (do you read my letter yet, hun? if not try searching it in this post ;P). She's a very fun person if you get to know her enough. ...

I just realized something. I realized that i'm such a coward. So coward that i can't even face my own life. That's why it's pathetic. Somehow feel ashamed, somehow feel grateful. Ashamed that i am already this old, but i still cry over life that no matter what i still have to go through. And i'm grateful that i realized it now, not after i do something too stupid to harm my life. This life, no matter what, i have to go through either way. So either i rock the shit out of it and be a little more courageous, or like a chicken, hide forever. Ika, Clarissa and Suvii is right. I should not get upset by just a small matter like this. I'm too stupid. They will eventually go away anyway, so why i have to be ashamed? :) And say hello to my new lullaby.

Hi people. I just wanna show you guys my current nails. Yes i just paint it. And i laaarrrvvveee it. Kthxbye.

I need to stop being a bitch . I keep getting jelly whenever i see a gorgeous girl or a successful teenager. Is this even normal, or is it just me? I kinda blame myself for not being as great as them. I keep blaming myself that my luck is not as great as them. I keep blaming my own life, my whole life has been a shit because of myself and blablabla. Unfortunately i have *censored* so i can't keep up with any of those successful teenagers. Yes i shouldn't be blaming that upon my failure in life, but that really matters a lot. Without those things, i could have been a super model now. Or at least, a local model or something. What the point here is, i really hate myself for being so unlucky. Who can i blame besides myself? Fuck myself . I've been feeling so emo and suicidal lately. I can't help it. There's literally nothing here that could make me happy or even smile a little bit. All i have here is depression, anger, sadness, patheticness, and well. suicide fee...

Zi lian-ing in this boring saturday afternoon. Turns out i accidentally deleted all the webcam photos i took before i got the chance to upload it so oh well. No photos of me. Nyahahaha In the other hand lemme show you guys some fail masque photos that my bro took. Perverted ah-pek with bunny teeth. WTF face of Virgin Mary. I'm currently chatting with Suviinthra and Dorminsmon right now. But they're all busy with their own stuffs too so :-| Kthanksbye. :B

Just in case you guys gets confused with the title, i'm doing a 10 day challenge thing right now. And i'm doing day 5 and day 6 at once cause i wanna finish this sooner. if you're interested on my previous day challenge, here's the link to day 1 , day 2 , day 3 , and day 4 . Now, it's for Day 5 : Six of your favorite books. i personally don't really like reading books, whether it's school books, novel, or even comics. So it's hard for me to say six books that i favorited cause i never like or favorite any books. But if i really had to say a book that gives me impression, imma say my sister's handmade comics . They are all awesome, and have great storyline in it. Oh if only i can show you guys how awesome it is. :D but i don't even know if her comic is considered a book or not. Oh well let's just skip to day 6. Day 6 : Five things you can eat everyday. Like come on. You ask an eating-monster a food question? Are you kidding me? ...

TODAY IS A REALLY SHITTY DAY. NO REST, NO GOOD THINGS HAPPEN, NO ENTERTAINMENT, NO FREEDOM, as always. fucking first day of period makes me so moody, i screamed a lot today. whether screamed to my brother, or sabbath, or just thin air (almost to my mom, too. thank god i still can control it). OH AND GUESS WHAT, I GOT A BONUS TO MY SUFFERING, which is stomach pain, and fucking influenza that makes me sneeze a lot today. my eyes hardly can open and all teary. weather wasn't helping, either. TOO HOT THAT I CAN EASILY MELT. tried to ease my mood by hanging out with my friends tonight, but no effect. still bad mood. SOOO MUCH. or should i say the hanging out with friends thing makes my mood gone worser. somebody fucking say something about my physic; which i don't wanna fucking say here since it's humiliating; and although that person say that to me without any meaning to hurt me, but i still am offended and heartbroken. some people just gonna learn how to control what they say...

i just realized how Korea is such a big success in both music and movies. This morning i watched this movie called My little bride . IT. WAS. AWESOME. Boeun (Moon Geun Young) is an ordinary 15-year-old high school girl who worries about grades and has a crush on her school's baseball team ace, Jungwoo . One day, Boeun's grandfather orders her to marry Sangmin (Kim Rae Won) because of a pact he made with Sangmin's grandfather during the Korean War. Despite the grandchildren's opposition, they are forced to marry because of Boeun's grandfather's strong influence. Boeun's undercover married life begins: She pretends that she doesn't have a husband and starts dating Jungwoo. Boeun believes that she can manage both men and live a double life. Everything goes smoothly until Sangmin visits Boeun's school as a student teacher. Okay i copied that from wikipedia. But all i want to say is this movie is so good! i give 4.5 stars out of 5. Because th...

I didn't expect i could change my layout this drastically. maybe it's just because i'm too tired with my old ones. too plain, too boring, too much drama, cbox got a few bitches bitching too so i replaced it with a new one too. well i guess i go back to vintage style again. wohoo i'm so happy . mom's getting worse rather than feeling better. i don't know what should i do anymore; all things seems to be my fault, while mom always being naive, always thinks what i do will gone wrong . she never believes me. or anyone else. but then things fucked up. and she blame anyone. anyone . i really can't handle it, but after all she's my mom. she talks about other kids taking medical faculty in college while i took design and how she say design won't bring me anywhere. well it's quite true, but choosing design as my faculty has been my plan before i enter college, while medical never cross my mind at all. i mean duh, i take IPS leh. besides if you work ...

I'm in the mood for making tutorials today :3 So well you are a blogger. Night and day. And one day you're thinking "hey maybe i should get a calendar on my blog just to remind me but i don't know where should i get the code", well fear not, this tutorial is going to give you one! 8D Just past this code to your desired place (ex. sidebar, on top of the page, or wherever) To change the font : find the word FONT face='arial' above and change arial into your desired font To change color, add border, and other styles : find style='font-size : 12px; color : #000000;' cellpadding=0 cellspacing=1 above and add any CSS code you want after the word style=' To change the width and height : find the word table width=170px height=170px border=0 above and change 170px into your desired width and height. If you have any problems, comment on this post :D

i noticed that all bloggers that i follow rarely post anything up now. idk if this is because of school, or holiday, or whatever shit it has to be; what i know is i feel lonely .____. i miss those ridiculous and silly posts they made. LOL no offense though. well as the title above, today i'm gonna write something that has to do with this thing called FRIEND . there's no need to explain, let alone define what friend is this. we all know so well. but i just can't stand some people that admit themselves as somebody elses' friend while they didn't do or act like one. you know what i mean? well if i have to sort it out, there's 3 most common types of so-called 'friend' that you wouldn't want to have. 1. A 'friend' that use you. By the word 'use', i mean using you as a weapon for their enemy, or using you to get close to their crush, or to even 'steal' your popularity if you even have one. This kind of friend usually always ...

Me, mom and my bro was having durians just now when Sabbath my lovely cat came towards us and ask for some. I brought one for him and look at how he eats it in an instant! Here's a 3 minute clip of him eating the durians. Sorry for my perverted laugh D; Sabbath was licking my finger and it tickles so yeah xD

it's funny how every time when you don't have anything to do you spend your time on the computer trying to spit something from your mind out to your blog but there just nothing comes out from your mind and there's nothing to say about your daily life cause it's just too boring and there's nothing special happen in your life and you just spend the whole fuckery day in front of monitor and stalk some other people's website and go jelly and then after that you go all emo-ing because you wanna be as famous/busy/successful as her/him but you just can't cause you have no life. after that you just stuff yourself some hi-fat food like chips and fries and when night comes you just go to sleep and try to survive the boredomness the next day. don't you feel like it's too pathetic?

This i dedicate to a friend of mine who had been through all this time with me whether it's sad or happy times. Since i wanna express it all out i'm going to use Bahasa Indonesia. :) Semua berawal dari masa SMA ku. Aku sekelas dengan dia, Siti Khalifah, dan menurut aku aku beruntung banget bisa sekelas dengannya, karena kalau bukan takdirku dengannya, ga bakalan ada hari ini. Jadi pada awal sekolah, kami cuman kenal gitu-gitu aja. Jangankan deket ato akrab. Ngomongpun jarang. Soalnya tempat duduk kami berdua lumayan jauh dan aku ada temen sendiri, diapun ada temennya sendiri. Ga begitu ada interaksi di antara kita berdua.. Agak pertengahan kelas 1 SMA, aku mulai berbaur dengan anak-anak dalam kelasku termasuk dia. Cewek-cewek dikelasku mulai bergabung jadi 1 dan saling deket satu sama lain, dan aku, dia, pinge (salah satu temen baekku yang belum ak cerita betapa awesomenya dia), viol (ini juga temen baek aku yang belum sempet aku ceritain, kapan-kapan deh, pasti ada), a...

Good day, all readers of this blog of Susan Dwiasmorojati. On behalf of Susan, I, her once and always good friend am very sorry to say that Susan, our beloved blogger had passed away because of heavy sickness she had last time.. . . . . . . . . . . . . GOTCHA. I'M BACK PEOPLE!!! anyone miss me? LOL okay sorry for freakin the shit out you guys. i just wanna make you guys scared ;P trololol. okay so i was gone for A WEEK . that was quite a long time. well i don't want this either! at least i'm back ;O How is my health? well to be honest, the moment i posted my previous post i was quite okay already cause i already vomit all the shit out. after i had dinner i recovered already. sorry to worry you guys so much :O i didn't mean to either. How is my mom's health? well it's quite a long story. she's okay now, but she's still recovering. she's still weak. that's why i'm not at jakarta now. i'm currently at Tanjungp...

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ZOMG just when things can't get any worser than having my mom sick on Jakarta instead of having fun with her, I GOT FUCKIN SICK TOO . just happened this afternoon when i ate Nasi Padang down and few minutes later my body started to rash and my heart beats like crazy. i think i got seafood allergic but strangely it never happens to me before. well it's probably the non-hygienic food, i guess. So i slept for a few hours and the rash is gone but instead of recovering i got a headache and i am really nauseous. I ended up throwing up 4 times. It was torturing, sickening, hurtful, dreadful, can't even describe the feeling. I feel so guilty cause i'm sick while my mom haven't recovered yet though. But who wants this too? Count me sue loh. And now i still feel very nauseous. Wanna throw up but got no more food to throw up. Feels like better off die goddammit. Hope mom and i get well soon.

what a fail start of July. It was supposed to be fun cause it's my term holiday but turns out sucks to the max. My mom is super sick, and all plans were cancelled and we all spend our days on hospital instead. This July is bitchy, i wonder what can get any bitchier than this. Hope July gets better. Can't help but write some shits here although there's no much to update about. I miss my blog so much. I miss all the kick-ass cymates too, but unfortunately i really don't have time to visit their blog. OMG don't wanna sound exaggerate but i feel like wanna cry. Blog is so my life. ⇦ (ppssshhh dork much. but i don't care. keep hating, fuckers.) Oh yeah btw my exam results are finally out. Thank God i still reach a 3 on my IP. NO KODE MK NAMA MATA KULIAH STATUS KREDIT(sks) NILAI(H) NILAI(N) ANGKA KUALITAS(sksN) KET. 1 DK12152 DESAIN DASAR II - 4 B 3.75 15.00   2 DK12162 MENGGAMBAR DASAR II - 3 B 3.08 9.24   3 DK12172 MENGGAMBAR...

actually i'm supposed to be asleep right now, but for the sake of updating my blog, i will update a bit about my mom's visit to Jakarta.. not something to be happy about though, cause instead of having fun, my mom got a problem with her health.. ▷ 27 June 2011, Monday My mom just arrived! We all so happy. Since she went to Malacca first before coming to Jakarta and it's been a tiring week for her, we all let her rest today. :D ▷ 28 June 2011, Tuesday My sister went to work, so i'm responsible for taking Mom to have fun. So i brought her to the nearest mall which is Central Park and Taman Anggrek. We went to Central Park's art gallery first and head off to Taman Anggrek's timezone :D FAIL. actually i'm the one who had fun the most though :( Mom look exhausted. ▷ 29 June 2011, Wednesday PUBLIC HOLIDAY!! Sis didn't have to go to work so we head off to Plaza Senayan :'D the reason Sis bring us there is that the mall has Kinokuniya in it an...