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images from Violent Delights "i was stuck in the middle of the people i love the most." this post is a bit sensitive and private to me, so yeah. i recommend you guys better not read it cos it's my business. you ask why i post it here if i don't want people to read it? well, it's my blog. what do you wanna do if i post it here? just now i was webcaming with him. we were happy until mom phoned me when i was webcaming. she asked me how am i doing here. and she asked my sis. well i said i am fine and sis is going out to her friends house. then she started to ask me those question again. "pimi or chin?"* (well, actually the real word is not pimi and chin but i have to change it because it's sensitive and maybe offending some people who read it) and i said chin .. then she started to say something like don't be an animal, be a good person, open your eyes wider, and don't get near those pimis and blablabla. that time i was webcaming wit...

images from Violent Delights "i never liked the crowds. i never do." yes, you can say, i hate the crowds. i never liked going out to concert or party or whatever. maybe because the chaos, or maybe something related to my self-esteem . yeah. my self-esteem. you can say i am very unconfident about myself, especially with my pimples which make me look like a shit walking down the street. it seems like my pimples offend a lot of people. idk why, but a lot of people who saw my pimples were like "omg! u got so many pimples!" or something like that. last time when i use busway to go somewhere i met a lot of guys like, when they're in busway they're looking at me like imma something weird or what. then when i was walking to another shelter and walk pass them, one of the boy was like "hahahaha ooowww!!!!" and etc, i didn't hear what he said again, but i heard slightly he said something like, "pimples" and "many". that...

Icon/Banner: thefadingnight "let me fill each part of your heart with my love, baby" :) you are the one, i know you are. although everybody's saying " you and him are never be together " and so many people dislike and dissaprove our little romance, but well, fuck them. i know we will be forever. i cherish every single time and day with you cause i feel happiness and warmness from you. baby, i love you. i do. i would do anything just to be with you. well, i don't care if somebody's saying i'm cheesy or to naive or what. i want you. and i have to because i want to. so many tears, so many laughter, so many feelings and memories have been inti this relationship. although it's only like a year. and people say it's just like a tiny simple relationship that can end easily. i feel like forever. i feel happy, and i feel like the happiest girl in this world. baby, i hope we can be together like, forever till we die. i really love you :...

Icon/Banner: thefadingnight "please let me have what i want!" taraa ~ as i said before, i will change my skin cos i'm fed up with the previous one and the back ground is black. and this is it! white background with a lot of icon splash :D well, i like though, i do. but somehow there's a few things which i changed it a little, so yeah. here it is :) everything's prefect though, until i make the back to the top button to scroll. fuck, it don't wanna scroll, like, it's not working . i am already like dkfjsdlkjsdkflksdfjKSDFJLKSDFJLKSDFJ aaarrrggghhh :( i hate it when this happens. everything is perfect until something happens and screw up everything. i feel liek wanna cry ;( hate it. hope i can find the root of te problem soon and fix everything. today was supposed to be my special day with kevin too. cos today we wanna like webcaming and play games together. but the internet today was like shit, and my webcam is not working. and he...

image from Lovebox omg just woke upppppp T^T soo late, i slept too much T^T hahahaha bopiang lah, last night i went to senayan city with sis and her friend Lola mah. we were looking shoes for like 3 hours or more ah. and then only buy one shoes. :D tsk tsk tsk. women are so dangerous especially when shopping. well, and you guessed it. i don't like tha whole shopping section and just sitting on a random chair i could found at the mall T^T hahaha. but some shoes are cute for me though :> just still not soulmates so yeah. no buy. after shopping we went to mangga besar to find some food. you see, mall's food court is closed already so we have to find another place outside the mall to eat. and you know what, senayan city and mangga besar is wwwwwwwaaaaayyyyyyy far. thank god we use taxi and it's NOT DAYTIME. lol. or imma get traffic jam to death. Lola suggest us to eat congee at Kamseeng Restaurant. she said the congee there are delicious. woaahh i'm okay to eve...

images from Eyes Of Illusion "the sky isn't blue. isn't blue when i'm with you" :) just phoning with him :) i'm so happy. happy with him. 4 days more and it's our 1 year 1 monthsary. it's been so long i'm with him. so many memories were written inside our hearts :) when i think of all the things that happened for this one year, i realize, i whine too much. there's soo many good memories when i'm with him yet i only remember the bad ones. i'm so evil. i shouldn't make you look bad. i'm sorry my bee :( actually people, i love him. i love him so much . i love him a ton. he's my inspiration. he's my bee. he's my life. and i can't do anything but to admit that i can't live without him. i just can't. he maybe just one year accompanies my life, but i feel this one year is more meaningful than my other 16 years. i love him, i need him. sorry people this article is sooo cheesy :D i just can't bear i...

image from reviviscent today i didn't go to college. i'm sick :) sick of the journey of 2 hours or more. i miss everything i the college but not for the assignments. my assignments is like piled up again :( drawing trees on linen with dermatograf which should have been submitted today but because i didn't go to college i got more time to do it right a pile of questions which need to be answered about creativity and submit on monday asistensi of gradien which have to be submitted on monday too so monday got two assignments english presentation and homework from the lecturer which i still don't have a clue and needs to be asked well i think it's just that. but that makes me stressed out already, like seriously. i rather take UTS everyday than assignments like this :( but oh well. that's tha life of university. i got no credits to text kevin :( he still doesn't know i skip class. i miss him. if only he knew i didn't go to college. he must be phoni...

images from My Fleur Art OMG just nao my blog got viruses :O like can you believe it lol. then when i check what's wrong, it's the singin' box which maeks my blog got malwared :D so yeah. no songs for tha moment. today we are asked to draw tress. again. but this time perspective are suggested more than tha details. not so great doin' perspective cus i still not really understand : she explained it to me and make it sounds easy. thanks kekeei :D xoxo ~ today i saw a lil black kitty lying weakly on the ground near a store besides my campus. omg she is liek, soo weak. can barely move. then my simpathy moved :( i go and buy a milk for tha poor lil kitty and give her a drink. at first she was like dont wanna drink it but then she drink it like it's frm heaven bcos of tha smell :D so cute ~ my friends all said that kitties shouldn't drink milk from cows. they said it will harm the kitty more. kekei said "by giving the milk to the kitty you ju...

headahe headache headache ! #___# i wanna make my menu scroll like my back to the top but when i open jQuery tutorial i go liek bfjdsfughuileuflsjflkdfjkljgkldjgksdjgfasdjfg blaaarrrrgggg *explodes* Q___Q it's soo hard! i hardly understand html and css, and now i have to learn j`q`uery again? omagah ... but i wanna make my blog pretty ! can't give up ! ganbate ganbate !

if you guys curious about what games i'm crazy about right now, well here it is! i took some snapshots for you guys all to see. it's a facebook game, though. Just search wild ones and it'll somewhat appear. It's like gunbound, only cuter :D this is my pet! it's a bunny :P i call it bunbun <3 this is the scene where thry fight! nyaahh :3 that's my bunbun on the top left ~ teehee :D

ahhahahaha. aku bakal bkin ini post blogging yang panjang banget. kalian yang mo baca siap-siap capek dweh. hahaha. soalnya banyak banget hal yang terjadi hari ini yang gak pernah ak ngalamin sebelumnya. let's start, shall we? :) bermulai dari kehidupan biasaku yang bangun jam 6 pada hari senen dan naik busway. selama otw dari manggarai ampe dukuh atas sih fine2 aja, gak ada yang terjadi. sampe dimana ketika aku tiba di harmoni . bam, antrian yang mo ke kalideres bagian kiri panjaaang banget. sedangkan waktu itu kalo gak slah uda jam 7.45 gitu. jadi mikir2, kata kk kalideres bagian kanan juga bisa ke grogol. dan kebetulan, kalideres bagian kanan antriannya lagi sepi. sepi banget. but take note : aku sama sekali gak tahu jalur busway kalideres bagian kanan ke halte grogol . jadi ya berhubung waktu udah mendesak gitu, aku berjudi waktu. kalo beruntung yah sampe tepat waktu. dan kalo gak ya telat. and guess what? i was late . anjrit abis dah. busway kalideres bag...

this lady still as amazing as before :D i'm in love with this song, her song. although the theme of this song is totally different from my mood right now, but it totally got me ~ teehee :P I am done Smoking gun We've lost it all The love is gone She has won Now its no fun We've lost it all The love is gone And we had magic And this is tragic You couldn't keep your hands to yourself I feel like our world's been infected, And somehow you left me neglected We've found our lives been changed Babe, you lost me And we tried Oh, how we cried Oh, we lost ourselves The love has died And we had magic And this is tragic You couldn't keep your hands to yourself Oh, I feel like our world's been infected And somehow you left me neglected We've found our lives been changed Cause babe, you lost me Now I know you're sorry And we were sweet Oh, but you chose lust when you deceived me And you'll regret it, but it...

i l o v e r a i n b o w i e t e x t l i k e t h i s : D teehee :D so you can say i`m damn bored and i`m trying new html thingies. i like to browse dynamuc drive and rainbow arch tho, they provide lots of html things for blog suck as scroll bar and such. and try clicking at my back to top button (for you all who dont know where is the back to top button, you can see the flower beside this post box, right? that's the back to top button)! :D it scrolls perfectly :D yaaayy, cool right ? i found the code at umm, secret :P my sis said "it's impossible ah you gonna have scrolls liek that. its hard" but bam! i have eeettt ~ :D so yeah. i'm the type of person who suits the quote "curiosity kills the cat" although i don;t know exactlt whats the meaning of that quote. so yaayy , today i feel randomly excitd and happy. i played wild ones, webcam, and phoned with him which we no longer have fights with, and hopefully, it lasts like this forev...

hewoooo bloggie :D see, today,i didn't spam chuu again with my crap like usual. happy or sad? teehee. right now im crazy about a game in facebook called wild ones. the game is like gunbound, if you guys know what gunbound is. the game is about shooting your enemies until your point is the highest. so yeah, right now im addicted to that game. probably will be hiatus for a while but no worries, imma be back again later and spam chuu with lots of crap :D now, imma go and play now, ciao :D muach muach ~

drawings of tree by me that i promise earlier i will upload :D the first one, the second, and the third :D the drawing gets worser and uglier =___= i prefer the first one ahahahh

as usual, tireedd :D today i went to find a kos with vivian. gee, there's a lot of good ones but the price oso good too :D i like one with minimalist design and big room, but the price, omagah it's 3juta :D and the average price for a kos is 1juta or ++ fer hundred K. lol. and the last that suits my view is vivan's. the price is ijuta and 2hubdred fifty. sis said i can move there but the money for kos i have to find it myself :( means i have to work. vivian ask me to work at starbucks or breadtalk together but idk... i still afraid of working :( idk, there just a feeling frm me that makes me go a lil confused. idk too how i explain it? the point is, im afraid. still got no experience :( blaaaaaaaahhhh ~ idk lah

mehh :/ you know what? im starting to get bored with my current skin. i think imma change it again. yea. changing blog is my actual interest than blogging things :D today i went to campus. we study like usual again. this time our lecturer asked us to draw trees, using a pen instead of pencil. gee :D i mean like, i still make lot of mistake wooh using pencil, and now you asked me to use pen? lol idk what will my creation look like lah later :P then we went to draw downstairs outside the class. this is my drawing result bam. you must be wonering now right where is the pic? well, i didn`t upload it. the uploader are like shit today so i didn`t upload it. i'll upload it later, okay? be patient. so after drawing wewent home. when im otw home the rain falls down. gee, i love the rain but the time it falls really is not right. because of the rain busway people are totally crowded and i met a pervert. what's more. the pervert are like tiny lil man, and it got like be...

like a g6 videoclip :D love love :*

if people ask me what is life ? well i would probably say ; LIFE . life is a mistery. life is a journey. life is a beginning to an end. life is hard. life is a question that cannot be answered. life is a thing that you have to face. then when people ask me what exactly is love ? i would say ; well love is a game of life. love is a feeling . love is painful. love is happiness. love is undefinable. love is when you look at someone and you know that he's the one. laugh ? then what is laugh ? laugh is a way of showing happiness. laugh is fun. laugh is great. and sometimes, laugh is something you use to hide your sorrow from poeople too.

cant sleep cant sleep T^T now it's like midnight but am still blogging. haiyah never mind lah. tomorrow's holiday mah. blog some more lah :D kevin and i are texting alot about our future. heh. idk bout that. i think just go with the flow. i still think theres gonna be alot of problems coming toward us. not to mention my mom. shes a total blaahh... idk lah. lets just see how much kevin would sacrifice for me. dont wanna talk much bout it. college life is getting more exciting for me :) i feel very comfy with my friends now. i love them all. i never felt like this before in my whole life. best friends with a lot of exciting friends. unlike pinang, only got a few bffs and others are like kepoh queen. always talk behind people's back. here, you seldom hear people talking people's back. they are all individual. and i like that :) im finding a new place to stay. near the campus. because my current kos are like blaaahh... sooo far from campus and i have to like take a journ...

heh :D i can`t believe what is just happening today. Today is 20th Oct and Jakarta has this demonstration. i dont care what for and i don`t wanna talk about it too. im just thinking ; whats with the demonstration? is indonesia still not satisfied with how the reputation now meh? tsk tsk. cant stop thinking. when i got home i phoned with Kevin. we talked alot tonight. and alot of memories haunt me again when i think of those days im on pinang. heh. bad memories. i fought with my friends, and are like... idk... stressed out. i hate them all. i don`t really like them. they all are somehow... very kepo. every little thing that none of their business, they talk about it. idk it`s a tradition or what, i dont like it! my jakarta friends aint like that. why they have to be like that? i can`t understand... actually in my mind, im planning on keep living in jakarta or at least somewhere else that very very far away from pinang. actually if i can, i wanna go far from indonesia. i wanna sta...

my friend`s epic expressions :D i lol`ed hard watching this pic :D from left to right then down to the second row : evelyn, melia, me :D, kendra, dedee, second row starts from anton, then christine, andhika, ferdian, and elora. third row is suhendra, miley, vivian, kekei, and the idiotic face is richard :D fourth row is michael, stella (i call her stezong :D), julie, and last is cung but people call her zong :D

FUCCCKKKK !!!!!!!! FUUUCCCCCKKKKK !!!!!! *Scream* so frustrated i am right now. done uploading ajie`s file but got reupload again. from 44mb to 0mb again. bitch. fuck fire ftp. AARRGGHHH *rage* my head is hurtig today. again. this disease come to me again. i just stopped for a few weeks then it come again. wth? what is wrong with me actually? *sigh* today is holiday. i didn`t go to college. for god sake i am sooo bored. i miss my friends. :( with them i really have a lot of fun. boo :( i woke up around 11pm and realized that my room got no electric. then i went out and ask the maid. SHE SAID BLACK OUT. oh god do you know how frustrated that is? pinang always black out. now jakarta like that too? fuck. i woke myself up finding mosquito bites all over my body. i hate it!! then i went to take a shower in the darkness. shit lah today. argh. then after i shower and eat i read epileptik graphic novel for a while, then went to sleep again. i am soo tired, and my head start hurting th...

しかし、疲れて眠ることができない i am sooo effing tired =A= but why can`t i sleep ? @A@ this has been the most tiring day of my life, with busway`s journey for 2 hours and the pain in my back hurting @A@ looks like i got a problem with my back. it like to hurt randomly, like i got some kind of disease or something. but i`m just guessing only.. still haven`t sure yet @___@ panda eyes attackk!!! miiiaaahhh ~ *going to sleep*

hari ini hari nomor dua terakhirnya UTS . mata kuliahnya menggambar dasar, jadi cuma gambar ransel abis tu pulang :D ("cuma" yeee , gaya kau sombooonnngg hahahah) gila ransel yg aku pake buat gambar susah banget =___= dapatnya tas gunung kakak soalnya gak ada ransel lagi selain itu yauda deh , pake aja mau gak mau hahahah :P dan alhasil gambarku hancur lebur jeduer2 karena tas ransel yg susah setengah mati itu banyak detail dan resletingnya. (uda bukan setengah mati x ya ? uda 3/4 mati x) tapi topik utama bukan gambar uts ku yg hancur itu karena sangat memalukan. so let`s back to the topic :3 setelah uts yg menyebalkan karena gambarku yang hancur itu aku, melia, evelyn, julie, kekei, vivian, elora, christine, anton, kendra, hendra, dedee, richard, yuris ama zongtenus pada ke kelapa gading. katanya sih kelapa gading berhubung bulan oktober ada rumah hantu gitu :D jadi ya terdorong oleh rasa penasaran dan ingin tahu rumah hantunya bagaimana, aku ikut. perjalanan mem...

so this evening i went to ambassador to cut my bushy hair and o to buy groceries. i went to johny andrean to cut my hair, and yes you guessed it, i`m nervous. i`m nervous cause i still don`t know how it will turn out. my hair is ummm somehow very wavy so not many hair style suits me. last time i cut my hair like a boy and it turn out omagaaahhh >___< i don`t even wanna think it anymore hahahaha but that time it turn out good when it got longer. ok back to the topic. so my hair was washed, cleaned with conditioner and such , then come the cutting part ! jeng jeng jenngg ... i was so afraid my hands got very cold. it`s common for me already cause i always like that =___= so abnormal. okay okay so i asked the stylist to cut my hair bob and look like rihanna (tha style where her back part hair was short then long at the front one) but somehow i think the stylist didn`t get what i`m saying @___@ so this is rihanna`s hairstyle which i want my hair to look like and ...

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aku pergi nonton readers :D and you know what i watched ? JENG JENGG .... *drum rolls* STEP UP 3 ! yaaaaaayyyy :D dan yep , filmnya three thumbs up dah ! kalo menurut aku sih , step up 3 lebih keren daripada street dance .. tapi kata kakak aku street dance lebih dapat emotionnya :D heheheh gak tau juga la ya . pendapat orang2 kan beda2 . Pindah dari Blatimore menuju New York , "Step Up" kali ini menampilkan Moose (Adam Sevani) bergabung dengan penari jalanan yang diketuai oleh Luke (Rick Malabri). Bersama-sama , mereka berjuang memenangkan kompetisi menari yang diselenggarakan di kota mereka itu . yang tinggal di daerah indonesia terutama jakarta boleh kunjungi website ini untuk mengetahui lebih lanjut informasinya :D kalo gak salah aku sih , step up juga ada 3dnya . :D gak nyesel deh nontn , seru banget ! koreografinya .. tariannya , alur ceritanya .. top banget dah ! heheheheh .. aku yang nonton aja jadi pengen nari beneran , imagine i do street...

EPICCCCCC :D i like the fan page without knowing it will turn out like that xD

Abyssinian A wild looking cat, the Abyssinian is thought to be one of the oldest breeds in the world. Though paintings of them have been found in ancient Egyptian art, their exact origins are unclear. Some believe they came from Ethiopia (formerly called Abyssinia) and others believe they originated from areas near the coast of India. Whatever the origins, Abyssinians were imported to England where they were refined by breeders. Abyssinians are average sized cats of a medium build, weighing about eight to ten pounds and living anywhere from thirteen to twenty years. Described as resembling a Puma or a Cougar, Abyssinians have medium length coats that are dense and have markings similar to a tabby cat. The coats can come in several colors, ruddy (burnt sienna), red, sorrel (burnt orange), blue (soft blue and apricot), and fawn (pinkish beige and oatmeal) with even ticking. Abyssinians are described as very independent and intelligent. They are not considered lap cats and hate being ...