three of my biggest imperfections

I just read a post from Florence (click click! she's a cute girl) about how she wrote about three of her imperfections and how she wants other to tell theirs too. And i thought, why not? Everybody has their imperfections anyway, and you are no exception. Everybody's the same. So don't be shy to tell the world how imperfect you are and still can be happy and living great out of it! (okay i'm being too positive here after my breakdown lol do i look fake? yes? uggghhh okay D:)

ZITS
That is the first thing i thought about when i heard the word imperfection. Yes, i have zits. No, it's not just one or two, it's covering my whole face and it makes me look like shit. Lemme tell you the history of how zits have been growing on my face. Prepare to be disgusted. (uhh omg what's with me i've been telling honesty to my reader these days and they are going to leave me cause i'm not as awesome as they thought orz)

So, two years ago, when i was in high school, zits starts growing on my face, slowly. And like other typical teenagers, i freaked out, like OMG there are zits on my chin on my forehead what should i do with it and stuffs. I've tried all the freakin facial foam i can ever find, and i've tried all the recommendations my friends gave to me like masking your face with white egg etc too, but no cure. In fact, it's growing a lot more than usual, and it started to grow all over my cheek. I look like shit, i admit. T_T And now, i've been using doctor's medicine, the zits indeed has gone, and my face looks slightly better, but still.. The scar on my face is still there and my face is not as smooth as before anymore, cause i like to squeeze my zits so it leaves a mark T____T /le creyz like crazy

I admit. Zits is my biggest imperfections, if we're talking about physics here. Sometimes Everytime i see a beautiful flawless girl, i get really really sad. Sometimes i even cry to myself. Because i always think about how she can have every little perfect thing every girl wants, while i can't. And because of this evil thing, i didn't dare to do anything, anything. i walk with my heads down, i stay at home till i rots, and i can't do eye contact with people. Zits changed my life, and believe it or not, i feel like i'm a loser now. But yeah, of course. I am learning to be a little bit confident now. I try to think of how zits is only a temporary thing, and how it's going to be dissapear when i waits. I'm picking up pieces of me that i've been dropping all these two years now. Think positive after all is the key to my recovery. :)

TEMPER
This is my second bad habit that will slowly but sure gonna drive people away from me. I get offended too easily. Too easily that even jokes will make me mad. If i get mad, i will scold every little thing that's in front of me, and people around me will pay the price. I really hate this habit of mine, and trying hard to be a more patient person. But of course, it's not that easy. :(

I am kinda emotional too. It matters a lot to me if there's a one person that says me ugly or insult me or whatever. I take it really seriously. And the worst part is, if there's no one there to comfort me, i will cry, and i will think that i am the most pathetic person in this world. Wo tai xiang bu kai, aren't i? But that's what happened.

THERE IS NO NUMBER THREE
I'm not trying to be a perfect little bitch here, i'm just trying to love myself. I don't want to see every little things in my body or in my soul as a imperfection, cause baby, i was born this way 8D (LOLOLOL GAGA'S SONG FTW, PERFECT TIMING, RIGHT?? LOLOLOL) So yeah, there is no number three. Or there is according to you guys? :3

So that is my imperfections, and i'm proud cause i didn't do something stupid to harm myself. what is yours?
say it to the world, and pass this on! ;3