Okay this picture on the left freaked myself out but at the same time it's awesome. For you guys who followed my twitter probably seen it already but i wanted to post it anyway.

How are you guys doin??

I freakin' miss my blog and you readers but just can't seem to have time to update. Last time when i said my mom went to hospital for a check up, she had appendix and got an operation going on. And when she was being operated, doctor said her small intestine and big intestine got tangled together and swelled inside so it needs to get solved either. In the end half of my mom's stomach was being cut and she was like so weak i have to rush to Malaysia to take care of her.

When i got there she was lying, weak, and pale.


I.. Kinda regret what i said in my previous post before about how she is so annoying. I realized i have known nothing about her, after all these time she's been through.

I admit i cried seeing her in her condition.

/le sigh

So for a week i was there, at the hospital taking care of my mom. FYI, she was hospitalized at KPJ Hospital at Johor Bahru. That's why i didn't have any time to go online.

By the time she discharged it was near New Years already and i have to rush here and there buying kue kerings and shits like that, till today like finally, i got the time to blog.

I miss you guys this much!!!

LOL. Just jokin'. I miss you guys so much that nothing can picture it. :')
Fo real bro.


Anyways out of the business above, i just wanted to say that lately, i uhm. am falling in love with someone.

i mentioned this man before, i don't wanna mention it twice cause i will look like i am an attention whore. Yes bitch that says you love your boyfriend forever on facebook every 5 minutes i'm talking to you.

Well he's always been there whenever i need someone, and he is funny. It's funny how a good friend can become a lover just like that. I guess when love says it's on, it's on. :')


Well i think that's all. TTYL guys.


P.P.S : my phone memory card is unreadable and cannot be formatted. I am going to stomp this motherfudger memory card till it breaks into a thousand pieces. The End.

Oh and one last thing, check out this song.
Got it from Bach.
Check out her blog too.
She's beyond awesome.

shit i though this post is going to be a hell of a long ass post but why it's only like a scroll down dammit im so bad at writing pls kill meeh

Mom is feeling better. But she's going to Malaysia this 13 January for a check up and i can't help but feeling happy cause, like, finally, she's willing to go see a doctor and finally, i get to hang out with my moeslim friends. I mean all this time, at this living prison, she never let me hang out with my moeslim friends. And i hate that.

If you want me to be honest, i never get happy whenever i go back to my hometown. You can see how sad and miserable my blog posts are all this time whenever i fly back home. Why? Because my family sucks. Never been suckier. I got an ignorant brother. And he never cares a shit to anything, except for his games and his shit. He never gives a fuck to the family or his school which makes everything worse. Let alone mom. I don't have to say, this family sucks the most because of her. Her and her uncontrollably temper, her selfishness, her negative thinking, everything. Everything that sucks comes from her. Everything seems to be a problem to her. And she never sees a bright side of a thing, not even a thing. And whenever someone makes a good thing or impressive thing, she doesn't even praise or gives reward. She just, well. Move on. And keep thinking about everything that is wrong to her. And accuse us. And scold at us. And swear at us.

I hate my family. I hate everything here. I hate my hometown. I hate my friends here. I hate my school. I hate my childhood. I hate the society. The cruel competitive society. Everyone seems to be so competitive, on reputation. So obssesive. Everyone wants themselves to be number one here, no matter how much they change their personality or fashion just to fit in. I hate it. I hate it so much. And people here, are as kepo as shit. Whenever someone sucks or does bad at something, they gossip like crazy, and by the time you realize it everyone here knows you did bad things. Those filthy mouth. Sins.

The hard work, and the hard pressure. Everything makes me so sick, makes me wanna run away from this shitty place as far as i can be.

I hate this place. I hate this world. This.. fake, full of hypocrites world.
Found this pic on my mom's laptop.

Me and my siblings have no cure.
See the troll faces version!

Oh and btw my exam scores are out, and i got 3.45 IP out of 4.00

1 DK22181 TIPOGRAFI I - 3 C 2.97 8.91  
2 DK22221 PSI.PERSEPSI DAN SOSIAL - 2 B 3.72 7.44  
3 DK22231 TINJAUAN DESAIN - 2 B 3.40 6.80  
4 DK22261 EKSPRERIMEN KREATIF - 3 B 3.31 9.93  
5 DK23102 DES.KOM.VISUAL II - 4 B 3.78 15.12  
6 DK23131 KOMPUTER GRAFIS I - 3 A 4.00 12.00  
7 DK23141 FOTOGRAFI I - 3 C 2.96 8.88  
JUMLAH 20     69.08 IPs :3.45
Another personal update

Since we only had a few people attending to our new year's eve party i thought it's going to be boring but who knows it became a blast. At first there's only 5 of us preparing for food and etc etc but on the process of cooking few friends came along and our party became merrier. We had our own fireworks, and we had spaghetti, we watched Shrek 1 and 2 and SAW IV, and i drank a lot of Pocari and Kaki Tiga cause it's full of heat with all this BBQ all going on. And oh, Anton house's mosquito is effing scary. They're like zillions of them and i got bitten to literally, death. But overall i had a great fun. So is my friends. But we all became zombies when morning comes cause no one sleeps LOL.

After that i slept the whole day out. I slept from 10 AM to 4 PM. After i woke up me and Sis went to Citraland for hair makeover shhhyyeeaahh ;)

I wanted to have more lighter colour than my current hair but there are no lighter colours available. The only option is to bleach to have lighter colour ones but bleaching damages hair and the salon almost closed too so i ended up dying the same hair colour again boooo boring shit :/

For you gaiz who never seen my hair you can go to this post to check it ooottt

So yeah. After colouring my hair it's time to pack my stuffs up because tomorrow i'm going back to hometown. It's depressing. Not exciting at all. So sad but true. Cause mom is sick and dad is sick and bro is stupid so i have to do all the housework (which turns out true!). So after packing stuffs i went out for a stroll with Icang cause he's the only person that can go out at night with me /le creyz Icang idk what my life will be if i had not found a friend like youuu

I know he's going to read this so why not write down some mushy stuffs so he feel special. LOL

So yeah, went for a stroll with Icang, sat down for a couple of hours at 7 Eleven and talk a lot of things... Till 3 AM. I swear i am not tired at all till the second i stepped into my room. My body felt weak suddenly and it's urging me to sleep but when my body touch the bed my brain was like "NOOOOOOOOOO WTF WHY YOU SLEEP NO NO NO CANNOT SLEEP YOU MUST WAKE UP BODY". AND SO DID MY BODY T__________T i ended up not sleeping. AT ALL. and it felt like shit going to airport with zombie mode turned on.

So morning came, i went to airport, blablahblah you know what's next, i used two hours of flight for sleeping and i went home. Mom is sitting helplessly at the chair and dad have difficulties moving cause he's like super old already and his feet swell like fucking hell.

I was like wtf.... I am going to have hard time here taking care of them.. And it really is.

Well. It's not like helping both of my beloved parents is a burden and i am being not filial but MOOMM. I HATE MOMM. She nags a lot and she complains a lot and she says a lot of "I SHOULD HAVE DIEDD" "OHH I AM SO MISERABLE" "I AM THE MOST UNFORTUNATE PEOPLE IN THE WORLD" thing. I mean like come on. COME ONNNN. YOU SHOULD HAVE SEEN AFRICA, BYATCCHH.

i cannot say how much i am so depressed because of her attitude and her bad habit. All i can say to you is i am mentally hurt and tired and sick to death by her, and no one of you will understand that cause you guys all have a wonderful peaceful little family that you guys never cherish. Believe me. I am far way sue than you all.

This btw, is some pics me and my bro took. To sweeten this ranting post.

Third picture is taken by my bro.

Sabbath is the best i love him.

Oh, and this is for you, Icangkir Markobus.
Bosen dirumah ended up making this.

Pasti udah keburu geer. Pfffttt ;P